what happened to me? after more than a year of seeming inactivity, here i am handling two projects at the same time!amazing! do you think making my own blog here jumpstarted my sleeping consciusness and awakened the long dormant soul that has been sleeping inside my body? i don't know. all i know is i am neck-deep in activities and plans, all of which are running full-force at breakneck speed. never have i faced this kind of situation. true, it's scary to start a business, to not use your own money end yet place everything at a risk. it's a miracle people even trust me enough to lend me their money. i know i haven't showed them anything so that they will believe in me but still, they do.
right now, i am trying to fight off the feeling that i can't do it. that i will just make all of these plans crash and i will be thrown in the trash can. no. really. i must stop thinking negatively. i have to get hold of myself. i have to work hard. now i really have something to sink my teeth in.
for more than a year now i have had nothing worthwhile to do. sure i do the routine jobs, things that need to get done and over with in running a home. but facing challenging projects? uh-oh...nope..never heard..
so this is sort of a rebirth. a rebirth that, i hope, shall turn out okay.
